Love and growth, evolution in a lifetime.

I've got a problem: I love intensely and fiercely. I feel though however, as if, if there is a day I am not actively nurturing my relationship with a friend who loves and cares for me, and we are not already at a steady plateau, that our relationship tumbles backwards multiple steps.

Take for example a free form, unassisted mountain climb. Apply this to your search for happiness, your search for security, whatever it is.

If you hang onto a position that isn't a stable sturdy plateau to rest upon, your arms will get weary.
You may let gravity reduce your current elevation just to take some pressure off of your arms. If you're on a plateau however, even just a nice little ledge, a niche if you will, you can rest.

If I know that I fill a niche in a friend's life, I am content that I will not lose their love irrationally day to day.

However, if I don't contact and nurture growth with someone who I've recently met, or who I am maturing with, I won't be able to feel as if I've even done them justice in knowing them.

If I find myself feeling that for some reason, if a friend treats me differently, and "loves me less" on a given day, I want to approach them and ask "What about yesterday, or the day before yesterday, made you love me less than the day before that? Or what was I doing right the day before, that I didn't do yesterday, and how can I keep that up to nurture our love for each other? I want to make tomorrow a day where you love me more than either of the previous days."

My connections are so vastly important to me, because I feel I can say "I suffer from compersion." I want connections with people who are going to be happy. I want connections with people who are going to continue loving me day to day.

Perhaps I shall break down a timeline of growth with an individual, say the next person I make a random connection with whom stays my friend for over a week. Is anyone interested in watching a relationship grow, how I analyze and perceive it to be, and what events spark me to quantify my love for another person, and the level of love I believe myself to be receiving from them?

Be well everyone.